Wednesday, October 31, 2007

睡梦中乍醒

好恐怖,最近晚上想睡个短觉时,闹钟都会失灵。
我听见它,我关了它,可是我醒不来。
浑浑噩噩的,很累很累。
然后,突然深吸一口气,乍醒。
深吸一口气。
别人说我有压力。
痘痘出得满脸都是。
我的脸烂掉!
什么跟什么,中六连中考我都没有这样过,
竟然在大学考试过得如此悲惨。
哎...人生。

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

人生中的你我他

这个夜晚不太冷。
虽然考试迫在眉梢,可还没准备好的心情,没有忐忑不安,虽然着急,可是并不足以变成原动力。
好啦,午夜3时。
突然想起从前。
在接近21岁的路途中,也不算是什么跌跌撞撞大起大浪,但要经历的都品尝了,好的坏的,都过去了。
在这个2 phase locking的地方,停顿一下。
原来很多时候,我身边的好朋友,都一直“流失”
怎么说。
从一年级开始懂事,开始记得身边朋友的名字。
那时的好朋友,馥馨,我可是花了好久好久的时间才懂得写这个名。
纯纯的友谊就这样滋长。
真得好单纯。
三年级转校,认识了佩诗。
还记得那时候每天每天的电话,让我好一阵子拿起电话时都“重重”的感到不好意思。
每天15--20通电话问功课,真的不是普通人可以做到的。
之后的慧仪,你让我想起了一句话。
“或许某人在你心中不是所有,但你却是某人心中的所有。”
原来当你把我当成所有的时候我却把你当成普通朋友。
原来,我这么没良心呐..
再来的文丽,曾几何时我们是无所不谈的?连转校后还陆续不断的通信也变成乐趣之一。
现在都过眼云烟了。甚至,偶然在街上遇见,也只是笑笑,连招呼也没打就迫急离开。
中学一年级。
第一次接触所谓的大哥哥大姐姐,感觉好陌生,好害怕。
认识的蔡健佩和大秋,也不知所踪了。
还记得我们的dj游戏吗?
还记得rosmalinda吗?
还记得林心仁吗?
还记得。。。好多好多。
还有,慧仪。
那个时候,我们可是每天每天通电至少2小时哪!
同班也能那么多话题说个不停,那个时光,我很怀念哦!
什么翠湖的,哈哈。
还有,好多好多。
可是现在,大家都,不见了。
我站在山坡上,发觉所有事物突然变得渺小。
我过了那个山坡,原来所有事物都是我想要珍惜的。
可是我错过了。
或许每个人心中都有这么一个phase.
那时在纪念册写的
“人的一生中有不同阶段,不同朋友,编制出不同的故事,不同的回忆。”
原来,朋友真的可以分阶段的。
我明白了。
可是,想给我的好友们,虽然你们都在世界各地了,失去联络了,没话题了,有隔阂了,
还是谢谢你们,把我的回忆变得彩色无比。
在此祝福你们,前程似锦。

然后许个愿,希望现在认识的,都会变成永恒的,可以吗?

奇奇怪怪的现象

最近的男生都怪怪的,也不懂是不是月圆的关系,还是大家同时受了什么刺激,还是天气很冷什么奇奇怪怪的原因。
反正大家都变得奇奇怪怪的!!一点都不男生!
是不是年尾要到了,大家都不像一个人过圣诞阿?
还是,嗯,年纪变老了?
太奇怪了!!!!!!
搞得我也变得怪怪的...不正常!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

堕落!!

真得很讨厌这个字咧!本来还大大声的反驳朋友,说:“为什么在家里不能读书?借口啦”
结果,原来是真的,家里实在有太多太多的引诱了啦!回来这么久就堕落这么久,虽然还是有在“赶”project,不过浪费的时间还真得不是普通的少,一直给自己借口说回到那个鸟不拉屎的地方就会发奋,这几天就让自己过分放肆吧!
自己都觉得自己过分,结果呢?
就一直在追戏咯~~
看了什么呢?
我叫金三顺--韩国
还没进大学前已经在看,看到现在终于继续看完了。不能顶,老毛病又发作了!认识我的朋友应该知道怎么回事吧?为什么为什么!!马来西亚很烂啦!!写到这里我的心情又激奋了起来,真的...一点童话感都没有!!!失望中..

那小子真帅--韩国
哈哈,无意间在speedy看到的。宋承宪主演,搞笑居多。喜欢韩国片。搞笑中不忘带有感动成分,看了真开心~~也是值得一看哦!!

现在只想爱你--日本
超级推荐!日本年度赚人热泪的爱情片!故事讲述一个急着让自己长大的女生的爱情经历。为了让自己长大,她毅然离开熟悉的城市,离开了他,在他吻了她的那一个午后...看到最后还真的让我呆在那个静静的空间里,眼泪掉得无声无息的...

换换爱--台湾
发现自己还是比较喜欢看年轻没有心理负担的偶像剧也~当然也要看是什么啦,有些真得很烂很烂的剧就算有本人偶像也是不谑一顾的~~当然,之所以这么说就是表示这部还不错哦!看得我追追追~~怎么办,看完之后就更不想留在这块番薯上了~~哈哈~~后遗症。

又有什么好歌推荐呢?最近我在听什么呢?嗯...
蔡健雅--close to 蔡健雅 ep
1--如果你爱我
2--当你离开的时候
3--越来越不懂

张惠妹--如果你也听说--虽然一直有新歌,可是近几年,让我把注意力重新灌在她身上的,就是这首了。
张惠妹--你是爱我的

FIR--月牙湾
周杰伦--牛仔很忙(听到这首歌心情变得轻轻的~~好好笑,好开心~~周董第一次唱酱的歌哦!变得更可爱,更让人不可自拔了~)

五月天--天使(虽然很多正歌,可是突然让我醒觉五月天时代再次降临,使这首。)

陈嘉桦--蔷蔷(爱狗之歌,别奇怪,ella是也)

唐禹哲--最爱还是你(还好啦,没想到南学长还会唱歌)

小鸣--当我再爱你的时候(偶然发现这首歌,非主流,这是一首用生命为女朋友唱的最后之歌)

方大同--爱爱爱,诗人的情人(虽然很久了,可是最近才发现,他,不错。)

杨丞琳--任意门,缺氧(没错,正是后遗症。可是真得不错嘛)

潘嘉丽--完美的默契(she's back!)

王传一--welcometo my heart,换换爱(哈哈,again的后遗症咯,不过,看了戏再听,感觉720度不同)

郭静--我不想忘记你,仨人

还有一些不错的英文歌,不过对于这个我还真得超out的
mario barrett -- how do i breath
maroon 5 -- makes me wonder, wake up call
plain white T's -- hey there delilah
rihanna -- umbrella
the click five -- jenny
will.i.am -- i got it from my mama (这个的歌词,细细听过后笑死我..)
avril lavigne--when you're gone, innocence, girlfriend
bone thugs n harmony ft akon -- i tried
elliot yamin -- wait for you
enrique iglesias -- do you know (damn nice! what a ping pong song!)
gwen stefanie -- 4 in the morning
kat deluna ft elephant man -- whine up (best choice especially now examing...)

yoyo~~

Thursday, October 11, 2007

somebody tells me dat....

haha....he wants to transformed himself, gradualli, become tony leung+zhang zhen+daniel wu...

haha...saying he got "POTENTIAL YANG HEBAT"
well then i tell him, if u're tony leung, then im maggie cheung.
and guess wut's his answer?

"YEA !!I REALLY THINK YOU CAN DO THAT!!THEN WE CAN PAIR TOGETHA MAKE ANOTHER HUA YANG NIAN HUA"

haha....i boh lat liao...im maggie cheung!
please call me maggie !!
muahaha...

home-make steambot

12/10
彗玲姐生日哦!那里可以忘掉?所以为了给她一个小小惊喜,我们精心策划了一个小小的家庭火锅咯.
扑心扑命去买材料啦,蛋糕啦,又要考虑到玲姐不吃这个不喜欢那个,哇,原来逛街也可以很累的!哈哈,不过很兴奋咯!!
我们的战利品


obviously, im d camera girl....


很样衰哦?没关系啦!习惯就好~~


stars !!



of coz...me and sau sing lui loo!!




dats all of us , liyeen be the camera gal

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

马六甲一日游

说了,最近真的“忙得不可开交”,“焦头烂额”,全因放肆+堕落+疯狂过渡,外加不能控制自己,结果连回家乡的钱都没有了。哎,无言...爸爸,妈妈,我对不起你们...
可是,我这个不孝女还是失控了,结果还是选择堕落下去,继续过分!!
来到了马六甲咯!!
乍到!竟然来到马六甲还遇到老钱+美珊,没力啦!
开始也没什么特别,以前就来过好几次马六甲,觉得它是一个特别热的城市,我给这个的解释是它比较靠近garisan kathulistiwa(是这样写吗?忘了...)
吃了指定鸡饭--鸡饭粒后,又陆陆续续吃了蛋塌,cendol,过后跑去 mahkota parade遇到gary叶俊岑的签唱会吧,过后直接去打保龄球(超烂!下次打死都不会再去!),又走下走下到了对面的dataran merdeka, 再穿过去到了a famosa, 哈哈,光鸿开心咯!第一次大开眼界~~终于到了传说中的古城门,原来真得只有一个门(冷~~)
拍照咯,ss咯,结果我们在风和日丽,阳光普照的情况下,在古城门拍了一系列的A片...
再来我们几个够力大胃+贪吃的人说要吃了,虽然大家都在“还没饿”的情况下,没办法咯,先到葡萄牙村走一圈吧~~(镇得知走了一圈,连车门都没打开过...)
吃satay celup时间到!!哇,到我打开眼界了,用satay酱来滚碌碌我真的没看过咯!不要讲我孤陋寡闻啦。。

结果,爽到!!虽然大家都说不饿不饿,结果每个人要很控制自己才能勉强只吃了20串(每人),不然的话,我在想可能我现在就不用回怡保了。。

好了,吃饱去junker walk了。哇,白天和晚上的感觉完全不一样!因为这几条街,我爱上了马六甲~~
好多很有风味的建筑物,尤其那间padi的,我在想阿,以后的家居摆设来这里挑肯定非常和我心意!只是,价钱有点小贵咧...每间每间都有不同的设计,有些到有印度风,可是里头的摆设却有浓浓的民族色彩,有些外表残旧,可是内里却是优雅的意大利摆设!还有英国纯白设计啦,胆敢少不了的有中国传统建筑物咯,还有那种闸门让我想起从前乡下的大门,这里,我是爱上了!!到了街尾,又是吃的时候了,糖水冰糖葫芦烧埋黄梨酥,扫!


题外话,那天的明天是秀巧生日哦!当然要假假做戏酱也要给她个惊喜的~~所以呢,junker walk之后到了sampan bistro,据说,从前这里是看海的地方,只是政府实行填海计划后,这里已经不复从前了。
气氛是不错,只是食物水准有点退步,据说,这里的食物从前,也是一流的~~
结果还是叫了吃的,这个时候才发现,人的肚皮是非常有伸缩性的...
无所谓啦,我们志在是那晚的蛋糕嘛!~~~

好咯!庆祝完毕,已经很夜了,使时候踏上归途了。
午夜1:30,车里的人,都静了,只有司机,委屈你咯!


城门前与大炮合照



众目睽睽之下我们在做吓衰的事情,旁边的人一直在笑...



奇怪的手印--难倒是从前parameswara在重伤后逃命留下的??


我们在摧残公物..


传说中的努力向上,通往天堂的楼梯




不能顶,aunty一个!!破坏完了啦!!!




打广告--x 版手提袋



传说中的A片...



就是这间,让我完全爱上马六甲


好像回到了从前哦,还记得我的kampung门也是这样

Saturday, October 06, 2007

颓废堕落但过瘾的生活

I'm back to these what we called it "normal life", well at least I do so :)
After PT, feels like everything's back to normal, where it should be anyway from the time I've decided to move out.
Ya, we haven't been make out some dishes on our own, as everybody here was so busy with activities; we haven't been sit down and have a pillow talk or just simply chit-chatting for a long time, as everyone don't really have the opportunity to sit together as well; and yes, we don't haven any luxuries except -- busy, rush, tired, and frustrated on every failure and nonsense that we did, and now, we're back, all back.

This sem is nearly come to the end, in a very flashing move, final's coming. And this really makes me nervous, as I just like doing and learning nothing!!OMG!!I can't believe that again I have to enter the hall without anything in my brain!Some more I told myself in the past-sem, "Yeah, next sem i must grab pointer upon 3.5!"Guess how could i do it?sigh...

Whatever, fun is still there, said, I'm totally hopeless, helpless and frustrated, so I let myself freed for almost a week!Haha...sounds syok but Im actually super hyper syok indeed.
Sing k, window shopping, swimming, steambot-ing, sleep as much as i can, watching dramas whole day, reading long-time-friend-novel, on9-ing, chit-chatting, limteh-ing...going here and there and it really makes my place my room become the place where i come back to sleep , only. And this really sounds stupid, that life after PT becomes busier than before, but eventually, believe me, this is GREAT!

Waiting for liyeen to come back, where it means that I've to start my 3 main projects that's already waiting ahead....well...HATE THIS!
anywhere, at this moment, Im still enjoying my life geh~~haha~~

Friday, October 05, 2007

To You..

You have had many great sadnesses, which passed. And you say that even this passing was hard for you and put you out of sorts. But, please, consider whether these great sadnesses have not rather gone right through the center of yourself? Whether much in you has not altered, whether you have not somewhere, at some point of your being, undergone a change while you were sad? Only those sadnesses are dangerous and bad which one carries about among people in order to drown them out; like sicknesses that are superficially and foolishly treated they simply withdraw and after a little pause break out and are life, are unlived, spurned, lost life, of which one may die. Were it possible for us to see further than our knowledge reaches, and yet a little way beyond the outworks of our divining, perhaps we would endure our sadnesses with greater confidence than our joys. For they are the moments when something new has entered into us, something unknown; our feelings grow mute in shy perplexity, everything in us withdraws, a stillness comes, and the new, which no one knows, stands in the midst of it and is silent.

I believe that almost all our sadnesses are moments of tension that we find paralyzing because we no longer hear our surprised feelings living. Because we are alone with the alien thing that has entered into our self; because everything intimate and accustomed is for an instant taken away; because we stand in the middle of a transition where we cannot remain standing. For this reason the sadness too passes: the new thing in us, the added thing, has entered into our heart, has gone into its inmost chamber and is not even there any more,--is already in our blood.

Friends, this is what we should treat it as the sun still there shining for us.
Be brave.