Saturday, July 30, 2005


Rain's 3rd Album -- It's Raining

专辑曲目:
01.The end which it wants doing 想说的话
02.It s raining
03.I do
04.Familiar face 熟悉的脸
05.11 days 11天
06.Quiz 盘问
07.My groove 沉醉
08.Me 我
09.Biggest thing 最重要的事
10.Wanna talk 想要聊一聊
11.But I love you 然而我爱你
12.searches 寻找
13.No no no 不要
14.To you
15.I love you

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Full House -- Song Hye Kyo

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

听说这天的月亮最明亮 在朦胧的夜间发出低调的光芒
月光 总是默默的 为那伟大的远征者 指引前程 ...
我又在胡思乱想了 一个人陶醉在自我的世界里
此刻的宁静 无人干扰
蓦然发现 自己真的很喜欢 写些什么
总希望把生活上的点点滴滴 化为那优美的字字句句 记载下来
可惜呀可惜 造诣不高 词穷

思念一个人 是什么感觉?
不晓得 似乎也没有类似经验
可能绝情 可能无义 只是个人观点不同
或许还没到那种境界 没办法理解为何有些人总是爱得死去活来
没了 那就算了 不代表什么
可能肤浅 不明白那所谓爱的真谛
说穿了 我只不过还沉醉在童话故事里
公主和王子总会幸福快乐在一起
似乎忽略了 一些什么
所以
我喜欢看快乐美满结局的戏
我喜欢被成双成对的雀儿叫醒
喜欢看着一对对的星星闪烁 ...
只是 奇怪 我其实更喜欢一个人的寂寞
我享受那一个人的孤单
享受那一个人的下午
一个人的空间 一个人的咖啡 ...
两极化 不是吗?
很多时候就是这样
我想生病 但不想辛苦
我想看演唱会 但不想热闹过后的空虚
我想喝咖啡 但不想失眠 ...

混乱 就是这种感觉
乱~ 就象我不懂这篇东西有何意义
乱~ 只想把所有闪过脑海的字一一重拼
乱~ 我想 我是悃了

轻闭双眼 朦胧中掉入旋涡
经过轮徊的转盘 变成了罗靡欧
似乎在等待 似有似无的容颜
千年的思念 出现在眼前
生命能量的来源 冬晏的温暖 即将消失那夕阳的光辉
我在等待 等待茱丽叶的到来?
舍不得离开 怎么能离开
广阔的燎原 无际的天空
被卷入黑洞 沉沉睡去 ...

Friday, July 22, 2005

How am i suppose to start? Actually there're so many things keep flashing into my mind and it's a bit mess and i really don't know how to rearrange and start to write about it...and i really din feel that my english is "that good" until i can express myself/thoughts using this language...but wut should i do? "Practice makes perfect"!perhaps....

Well, there's something happened between our class (U6B3) and our form teacher -- Pn.Suguna, few weeks ago. I din really remembered wut happened. It's just one day, our monitor told us that Pn.Suguna was not able to enter our class : her husband was being heart attacked and he's in emergency. Honestly, when I heard about this news, I juz felt that there's nothing to worry about. Perhaps I'm that kind of "not interested in ppl's thing"? Few days later, she came back,told us about her husband's condition. That moment, i realised that she's just an ordinary woman, who needs love, who needs care, who needs a shoulder when in sad, who's just not only a teacher. I use to think that a teacher is like a queen, so far, so strong. But today, I realised that she's just a little women, who worried about her husband, who cried in front of her students..And i do, feel touching for her love to her husband. Later on, Rong Ean suggested " what about we make 1000 paper cranes for her?"And this time, for the second time i realised, "not bad ! our class oso can be very co-operative !" And finally, we are able to made it! The moment when we passed the box (which is FULL of LOVE and HOPE) to Pn.Suguna, once again, she felt so touching and said that we make her so guilty coz we do so many things to her and she dunno how 2 thank us...

For the second story, it's about the drama--Full House. Aiyaya!! Rain is so cute and muscular man ! Muscular doesn't mean that he must be very MUSCULAR like THE ROCK or Arnold, but his figure just suit his height and shape! U noe, sometimes some artists's figure just din suit their shape and outlook. For example : Bae Yong Jun. Last time his "half-naked" photos just surprised e'body -- it's so ugly ! For another main actor in FullHouse -- Song Hye Kyo, she's so cute ! I like her characteristic in this drama, if compare to the one in Autumn In My Heart. It does not mean that I dun like her,but i just some how dun like to watch the sad-sad ending story.Ok, let's come back to this drama. Juz finish watching episode 4, and i feel so "angry" coz the "authorities" oways cut the scenes till all EXCITING scene oso DIMINISHED ! damn...nevermind, let me persue my mummy to buy da CDs (izzit possible? i think so...perhaps i shud persue her saying HyeKyo so pretty and Rain so cute and da story so funny + interesting....just anything and everything i can do to made it success~~)

As you all know,19-7-2005 was da releasing day for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince and the months before i already pre-o da book.Yes, finally get it ! The bag's so beautiful! Purple in color.And i remembered that day when i took da book from MPH and go for the wet market in JJ, everybody seems looking at me ---- my book~~~This really make me feel proud of it, hah! But how? Now i really dun have time to enjoy it, even the Order of Phoenix i oso haven finish reading, CHARMED, and oso da DaVinCi's Code...so many books have to read...( why i make it sounds like i was being FORCED to read those books ler? Very interesting wor..)And recently, i fall in love with this writer -- FUMIJAN 敷米浆 -- he's a taiwanese, mayb others will feel that this writer is nothing more special but he can use such a simple word to express himself. His story, normally talk about love matter, touching. His style is somewhere very similar with another famous writer -- Hiyawu 藤井树, but not all...I dunno how to explain, somehow this writer juz playing with the words. I'm not saying that he oways use those strange and hard-to-understand-word but as contrast, he juz use such a simple expression and yet it goes deep inside your heart.

Recently, especially after getting the MUET result, e'body seems like nervous about their future : What band shud i get if i want 2 enter university? What band shud i get if i wish to enter xx course? What band shud i get....Honestly, I've no idea about it. I dunno what course should i take, what's my plan for future, and wut i'm gonna do later. I felt no interest in science subject, especially Chemistry ( Bio's better ).Then what shud i do? Courses like Pharmacy, Medicine and all those high-qualification I'm not qualify to enter...Long long ago, i make up my mind to choose Interior Design, but mum said it does not guarantees my future altot she din showed her not-supported. And now, i still like this, but i have an alternative interest: Travelling Management. But, this oso, does not guarantees...hah...actually, i heard many ppl said that they choose what they need but not what they want, but izzit necessary? I mean, if i'm not happy with my own choice, what for i force myself to study it? Altot now, i'm really dealing with this question, dealing with the shit STPM...scratching my head now..ARRR!!!

Another Friday-Night-Fever, time that i'm waiting for whole week. Guess i should stop at here?

Monday, July 18, 2005

这是第几次了?我又看着我的"男神"从身边溜走..哎...都怪我,沉溺在"远处观望"的快感,总觉得如果冒昧跑去认识人家或者搭上一两句的话,是一件超尴尬的事.所以罗,从以前到现在,都眼怔怔的看着别人和别人好,气煞!不过,说真的,我真的蛮享受那种从远远看着别人心底偷笑的感觉---"好赏心悦目哦!" 可能是害怕接触之后会改变他在心目中的印象,所以宁愿静静的"欣赏",也不愿破坏梦想...能理解吧?常人不都是把自己觉得喜欢又美丽的东西小心翼翼的捧在手心,收藏起来,不愿近距离观察,只想一直拥有那种感觉吗?就象是蛋糕上的草莓,一些人会直接把它吃掉,而另一些人,则会把它放在一旁,等到最后才会很舍不得的把它细舔一番才吃下肚去(这是什么比喻,怎么觉得怪怪的?)
哎,怎么每次都是酱?呵呵..难不成我"远观"观上瘾了吧?看来...又是时候另找目标了~~~呵呵~~~射手座嘛,本性难移呀~~~

Today is 18th July,2005, a nothing-special-day, but for me, or all upper sixes in Malaysia who took the MUET test in May, today is the result-releasing day. Honestly, I've really no idea -- no feeling about this, neither because I'm too confident with my English ( in fact me myself know that my English is not good at all, i just don't know why everybody just think that i'm good sense in that ) nor I'm not nervous about that, it just that i already have the worst decision: retake the exam if the result is bad. For God sake, i get a band 5 in it. It's ridiculous right? All of my mind decided that "i'm gonna retake it,i'm gonna retake it" and yet i get a band 5...although i'm just passed the boundary.
It's lucky, though, but it's a bit sad,too, because some of my pals din really get their ideal result. They are the band-5-owner in usual test but somehow don't know why they just get band 4....i'm really sorry about that...Szyen, I know your place, you are certainly not a band 4 student, you can easily get band 5 or mayb band 6 if that day you're not tired, really. LiWearn, you also the same. Don't be frustrated because of that, we all know where you should be in, it's definitely not your place. You know guys? All these really make me feel sick. i just feel guilty with my lucky-result! It just like i'm not qualify enough to get this....if compare with you all...aiikkss....:<
Anywhere, for my another best friend---hazel, you do, think twice, before you decide to retake the exam! coz today i heard another senior said, the authorities will take your latest result, not the best result..it's a bet, isn't it?Anywhere, you do your decision, and we'll surely give you our whole-heart-supportment~~~
Today...today..............

Sunday, July 10, 2005

不知道大家的童年是怎样的.时常听故事里的小孩说,他们的童年无都是在跳飞机,在田园里嬉戏,菜园里玩捉迷藏,傍晚时分在乡村的路口追野狗,晚上在星空下荡着秋千,无忧无虑......
我的童年嘛...也许单调了少少,可是也很值得回忆.回忆里想起了不知道多少岁那年,每天晚上妈妈叫我睡觉的时候,我还会偷偷的爬起来,偷偷的听李克勤的"红日"..感觉上,应该是3/4岁吧? 再往后一年,我就已经自己"搬"出来睡了...谁知那个笨蛋爸爸每次都拿一个叫"阿刨"的人来吓唬我,(因那人真的很样衰,想当年的我还以为他不是人..)害我每天都发恶梦! 再来呢...就觉得婆婆一个人睡觉很可怜,所以我也很伟大的放弃了我温暖的双层床,跑去婆婆那连风扇都没有的房间陪睡去...一睡就睡了两年..呵呵..我还记得那个时候每天晚上听到"里的呼声"播的最后一首歌,就是12点到了~~睡觉时候到了...哇哈哈...
然后咧,想当年的我,每天一大清早就跑到婆婆的菜园去"帮忙"浇水施肥拔草,当然,结果都是在拿着水喉到处乱射,害到隔壁家的阿旺和阿猫"狗飞猫走",还蛮爽的~~
种完菜啦,是时候到屋后的鸡棚收鸡蛋了~~~YAHUU !!鸡鸡我来罗~~~可是很奇怪,婆婆每次都不让我碰那些砂谷米(因我每次都乱撒满地,浪费).不给我喂就不给我喂,我去拾鸡蛋!嗯..哈哈...很不好意思..每次都把鸡蛋弄破,结果那天都没有"sap"鸡蛋可吃~~还有哦!!小鸡很可爱的哦!没有毛的...揸起来暖暖的..可恶咧?哇哈哈...
然后呢,就会在家里打我的"DD机"..大家还记不记得小时候有个游戏叫"任天堂"?里面有个游戏叫"super mario"?我可是高手哦!想当年啦!下午吃饭的时候呢,妈妈一定会把昨天录下的广告片段,尤其一定要播那个"小孩吃饼干"的广告(那个时候觉得电视机里的死人头吃到那么爽我也要吃到比他更爽才可以!) 结果...每次吃饭至少1个小时..因为大部分时间我都在瞪着电视机里的家伙...呵呵....
吃完饭过后呢,就是我的运动时间啦~~所谓的运动,就是骑着四轮脚车在屋里四处乱飘(那个时候我的飘移技术简直无人可及) 然后就看到我家的阿黄(一只很肥很大有肚腩羡慕我有脚车可骑的黄狗,当然,是我家养的)很羡慕的站在门外可怜兮兮的望着我,好象希望我给它骑似的...然后我就一个给它不留意再用力的撞向门去.."BANG!!"---阿黄吓到飞到马路上去了...我当然很得意的在奸笑~~~~呵呵呵
还记得那个妈妈肚子里有了一个那个时候我还不知道是什么东西还以为妈妈做么突然那么肥的东西的时候,妈妈骗我说以后我会有一个很可爱的弟弟,搞到我那个时候还好象中头奖那么开心...那个弟弟一出世后,我从第一变第二,没天理!妈妈还叫我帮忙摇弟弟的"salong"给他睡觉,哈哈...报仇机会来了...你要睡觉是吧?要很开心的睡是吧?就给你荡秋千慢慢睡!当然结果我给妈妈骂到狗血淋头..什么嘛...弟弟真的睡到很爽啊...他都没投诉妈妈干吗骂我....讨厌!偏心!...(现在我才知道我干了什么好事...告诉弟弟的时候还被他惨骂了一顿...)
哦哦...不知不觉又是5点了,要去看戏了..88


here's the song--"if i was invicible...then i could just walk through in your room..." dunno who's da singer ( what i noe is he's a he n one of the american idol who lose da champion...i guess?), n i got this song from my dear fren--jess--n i like it very much.Sometimes, i was thinking, wut would i do if i was invicible? perhaps act like the HollowMan and walking here n there doing sth that i cant do in my whole-life-time? ya...this is undoubtly good idea..but wut would i do?i cant...aiikkss....
A saturday night with the clock showing 2050, i was again sitting here n drop a few words for my blog. nothing, today is nothing, woke up early n went to skool 2 take my report card ( wf mum along ), n i wonder it was "my" report card day or my mum's "fren-reunion-day", she's just met her few frens since we walked into the skool compound till we walked out. n then, back 2 home, slept till 1300, took a bath, driving, attent my chemistry tuition class (n this reali make me sick n felt guilty that i din do the homework again..hopeless), bek to dad's shop, take the car to service, bek to home. boring life.
Again...if i was invicible~~~~~~

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Another mid-night-time, sitting in front of the table, looking at the screen, listening to JJ's song, watching at the TV bside, and yet , doing nothing except dreaming. I know it's not time for dreaming, especially me, who's gotta sitting for the terrible torturing stpm 3 months later, but, juz cant help myself open da computer n logging here n there..thinkin, is this my life? leading my daily schedule juz bcoz i have too and but not i wish to. cant escape from it, n yet have to face it..sometimes just feel frustrated when e'thing is going wrong, that i cant finish it while others can, QED. singh...
And,today, for the very first time, i saw a male, crying...more accurate is tearing i guess? n it makes me feel...AMAZING ! perhaps da "values n norms" make us think that boys are not supposed to cry, especially in front of people? but wut's wrong if they did it? i'll be appreciate if sbd juz tears out their feelings n let go, not juz hiding inside da 4-chamber-heart n let nobody know.we are human, not robot right? so men, juz show urself if u want to, there's nth wrong wf u if u cry bcoz of watchin a touching movie....
It's time for bed.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

so bored recently..thinking of reading da books all over again,preparing 4 da stpm..but somehow juz cant make up my mind in doin' it...
"berjuta bintang menyanyi..ku di antara yang satu....gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam...gementar harus jangan..jiwaku harus bertenaga..kita kini..menjadi realiti~~~~" song by JACLYN VICTOR -- da 1st malaysian idol...juz download this songs from a website, it's a live version. n i like da live version more than the "gemilang" in her latest release album...da cd version. da cd's version juz make me feel that jac haven sang her best 4 it..no ohm at all...but the live version--which she sang on da stage at the competition..wow! cant compare wf any other ! like this song so much ! n dat's da time i falled in luv wf malay song~~~
n here..another malay song in my mind .. "pudar" by Rossa. this song is light, spiritful, happy n it's very suitable 4 u 2 listen when u r in a down mood...dunno y juz feel so happy n wish 2 sing along wf her~~~lalala~~~
n i'm interested in 2 albums rite now--- "X&Y" by coldplay n BSB'S "nevergone" wut 2 do? no $$....hv 2 wait lar....aiikss..