Sunday, June 24, 2007

人生第一次,我是那么的害怕及讨厌“再见”这两个字。
是的,当你说,再见了,我的朋友。

我要以什么心情面对你?
是我要承认,我始终是个失败的经营者。

那是痛苦的,可以痛哭的,我会掉泪的,你会伤心的结局。
或许在电话的那一端,某个人在因为我而偷偷哭泣。
对不起。
我只能和你说,对不起。
是我自私,是我贪心。是我,太过实际,太过保护自己。

我要以什么心情面对你?
我还在迷惘。
时间能给我答案吗?
诚实后的天空,会不会变得晴朗?
但愿,你会比我快乐。
但愿,我不会在你的眼里,看到伤心的影子。
但愿,看着你的背影,我会感到释怀。

Saturday, June 23, 2007

不想说的再见,我始终还是没有说出口。

半年了,一直不敢对自己承认其实还是想念,最终还是硬着头皮,忐忑的见了一面。
那是让我后悔的,虽然亦让我期待。
从前的我从没想过会有这样的画面,
你往左边,我往右边,分道扬镳。
忽然间,有种莫名的感觉,突然很伤心。
好像,从此真的要说再见,或许,从此不会再见。
你不再跟随左右,我独自一人走了出去。
是抱着什么样的心情,你知道吗?
我在车上,从镜子望着你离去的背影,很想,很想跟上前,再看多一眼也好。
可是我不能,很努力的压抑自己,不要,不要。
然后,突然决堤。
慢慢的,我在街上寻找你的踪影,虽然明明知道,你是不可能出现在我身边。
是我放弃的,后果应该让我承担,只要你快乐就好。
为什么要让我察觉你的悲伤?
为什么你没有过得比我好?
是我自私,是我贪心,我不愿归还我们的相片,我想保留。
那是我的回忆。属于我和你的回忆。
你也哭泣了,是吗?
我似乎听见泪滴哏吟的声音。
你说谢谢你,我说对不起。
其实,那时候,甚至现在,我一直都是很挣扎。
或许我自私吧,我下的决定,似乎弄伤了彼此。
我对你有太多的亏欠吧?
我只知道,已没有机会补偿。
愿你能过得比我快乐些,或许会减轻伤痛吧。
虽然,这也是我自私的念头。
对不起。

Sunday, June 17, 2007

SAD CLUB

哈哈,承蒙秋宁同学的启发,SAD CLUB正式成立!请大家注意,SAD CLUB 是念做”S-A-D”而不是伤心的"sad"!!
什么是SAD呢?就是Single, Available + Desperate 啦!
凡是所有SAD的朋友都能进入此会哦!哈哈,或许有一天,我的自创名词SAD会好像什么VIP, LIP, DIY 的short form一样世界通用咧!要记得,这是我,吴宓恒,精心为所有单身的朋友研发的哦!!
有意加入者可以通知我的说~~
入会条件:必须要是SAD。
入会费:免费,或许可以花个1分钱sms我一下
目前为止post还未定,谁要霸头位咧?
哈哈,要趁快咯!!!名额有限!!没有啦,我们要推向全世界的啦!!要有大志!!

请大家帮忙forward哦!!
报名方法,去下面drop comment那边写一写名字啦~~
哈~~~癫了~~

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

从不情愿变成接受然后习惯

从当初很难说服自己竟然放假也要回来搞活动,到后来不得已的接受,至现在的已经习惯,我一个人在这个人人都说治安不好小心危险的地方有点独立又荒凉的生活了两个礼拜。或许真的必须真正尝试才会有所体验,这两个礼拜里面我清楚自己真的可以一整天甚至几天把自己关在自己的世界里,过着和电脑说话,看书,听歌,研究,睡觉的日子。时间到了就冲凉吃饭开电脑做功课研究软件,闷得发慌还可以看杂志听歌看戏,竟然还觉得时间真得不够用!匪夷所思!其实自己一个人真的很free,坦白说,我还有些珍惜,且会怀念这段日子吧!觉得,在这段时间,我还是成长了不少。

Sunday, June 10, 2007

颓废堕落但过瘾的生活

I'm back to these what we called it "normal life", well at least I do so :)
After PT, feels like everything's back to normal, where it should be anyway from the time I've decided to move out.
Ya, we haven't been make out some dishes on our own, as everybody here was so busy with activities; we haven't been sit down and have a pillow talk or just simply chit-chatting for a long time, as everyone don't really have the opportunity to sit together as well; and yes, we don't haven any luxuries except -- busy, rush, tired, and frustrated on every failure and nonsense that we did, and now, we're back, all back.

This sem is nearly come to the end, in a very flashing move, final's coming. And this really makes me nervous, as I just like doing and learning nothing!!OMG!!I can't believe that again I have to enter the hall without anything in my brain!Some more I told myself in the past-sem, "Yeah, next sem i must grab pointer upon 3.5!"Guess how could i do it?sigh...

Whatever, fun is still there, said, I'm totally hopeless, helpless and frustrated, so I let myself freed for almost a week!Haha...sounds syok but Im actually super hyper syok indeed.
Sing k, window shopping, swimming, steambot-ing, sleep as much as i can, watching dramas whole day, reading long-time-friend-novel, on9-ing, chit-chatting, limteh-ing...going here and there and it really makes my place my room become the place where i come back to sleep , only. And this really sounds stupid, that life after PT becomes busier than before, but eventually, believe me, this is GREAT!

Waiting for liyeen to come back, where it means that I've to start my 3 main projects that's already waiting ahead....well...HATE THIS!
anywhere, at this moment, Im still enjoying my life geh~~haha~~